Back to the Basics

There have been some events in my life in the past month that have left me questioning my priorities.  It seems you never quite know what is going to happen, and the things you think are going to happen, may not.  This led me to question the people I choose to spend my time with, literally and in a broad sense (texting, communicating thru facebook, etc).   I read this post on my friends FB that said liking a status isn't the same as I would show up to your funeral  This post really hit me.   I thought wow, I have 180 some odd friends on here that I share my every thought and emotion with, and that I waste my time reading all these other peoples status' while the real world and real loved ones are right here close to me. This made me decide to deactivate my facebook for a few days and see what happened.   The result has been that I feel free, weird, I know.  The first day I picked up my Blackberry a lot and clicked on the FB app and then I would remember and put it down.  When I had a feeling or a thought, I actually had to processs it and work through it, not just type it and post it and wait to see what others had to say.  I also found I had so much  more free time just to be me.  When I have idle time I am reading a book or thinking, not reading through a bunch of stuff that really doesn't pertain to me.  I don't think I will stay off facebook forever, but when I do go back on I am going to limit my friends list to only people I talk to on a regular basis.  I will also limit my status updates so that I am forced to deal with my thoughts and emotions on my own.   Another thing I have done is deleted all contacts in my phone that wouldn't show up to my funeral.  LOL....sounds funny but true.   If I have a number in my phone and I am bored/lonely, whatever, I will text all kinds of people.....which is so dumb!   I need to learn to be ok with being alone, and being lonely, and that I have real live people very close to me, usually in the same room, that I could talk to instead! I am trying to leave my phone down and be in the moment.  I don't want to miss moments because I'm always looking down at my phone.  Tonight my sisters, my Mom, my nephew and my boys and I all watched Home Alone 2 together.   The only thing I used my phone for during that movie was to record the giggle fest that was happening.  That is a good use of technology I would say.   I also spent some time just cuddling with Andrew and being in the moment.  I find life is flying by so quickly and I don't want to waste another second on meaningless stuff or people.  That being said...I am going to end this post now so I can  get a good sleep.  I have a fun filled day with the boys planned for tomorrow.  :)